We Named Him Wren.
In a world of sharp elbows,
and confused masculinity,
modernity glows
in artificial, pixelated hues.
Short, short, shorts.
Attention spans collapse.
Ice shelves collapse.
Boys collapse.
We.
All.
Fall.
Down.
The West is on fire.
What’s burning in front of us now,
is all that we see,
all that we ever will know.
Out of place.
Out of time.
South-facing.
Neck crooked.
Migrated desires,
lost in a hazy distance,
bordering close to a new life.
We named you Wren,
small-bodied, sharp-eyed,
a creature of restless song.
The belly-up, belly-full bird,
calling loud,
perched and quivering,
bobbing up and down, down and up.
I recall your birth.
You arrived—reluctantly.
But oh, how you were loved.
We named you Wren.
Not a burden,
but a call to arms.
The King of Birds, the trickster,
not nearly as strong as the eagle,
but wiser by far.
Our homely boy,
buried headfirst under your mother’s wing,
comforted by safety.
You flew highest of all.
Male wrens build their nests,
half-formed, waiting
for their mate
to add final touches
to call it a place of their own.
Patient as you are,
your sister does the rest.
You are precise.
She is not.
Where did all this empathy come from?
Your softness is a wonder.
We named you Wren.
And for such a small bird,
what a noise;
loud and insistent,
your song fills the air.
When we found out we were having a son,
my now-estranged aunt warned,
"Oh, the men in our family.
They don’t father their sons well."
As if I would flee the nest,
as if the weight of the unknown
was my cross to bear.
That was her family, not mine.
Do memories travel in blood?
These paternal ruptures
were an inheritance never sought.
In the summer of renewal,
I drove to the shoreline,
you in tow,
as your mother played with spirits in the forest.
Under a giving tree, she meditated.
While we skimmed flat rocks across the sea.
1—---2—--3—4—5–6-789.
It happened then.
The tears, they flowed.
Remembering the truth
of the fragile boy I once was,
with all the hate I then carried.
Bittersweet me.
To forgive myself.
To forgive him.
To forgive.
I cursed myself.
How had I not known this was the relief?
To be forgiven is to forgive.
Iris Murdoch knew this truth.
It was the greatest gift given.
And, truth be told, I found it hard.
I find it hard.
To be a father.
Was the curse bestowed upon the bloodline — true?
I often remark, as if I had mastered the art,
that parenting is one long sigh.
From the cradle to the grave,
we are in one silent goodbye.
In between those moments.
We must raise empowered daughters.
We must nurture empathetic sons.
This part you made easy.
You always did.
When we connect,
we don’t soar,
we skitter low, wings tucked,
bouncing proudly across the ground,
like your namesake,
flitting beneath Japanese maples,
pecking at fallen seeds,
dancing around squirrels who gather leaves.
We serenade each other
in ways only we understand
and in ways we don’t,
or likely ever will.
We named you Wren, my son,
my love, my boy.
My failings live through you,
my triumphs, my joy.
In the quiet between us,
where words often fail,
this love persists.
I built you this nest,
left it half untidy,
for you to make it your own.
If this poem resonates, share it. I think, perhaps, this is the conversation we should be having with our sons.
And as always, thank you for reading.
— G. K. Allum
And….”I often remark, as if I had mastered the art,
that parenting is one long sigh.
From the cradle to the grave,
we are in one silent goodbye.” This is such a beautiful work!!! All of the nuance within it. Thank you so VERY much for writing and for sharing it here! I hope you might read a few of mine one day as well. 😊Judi
“Do memories travel in blood?” I love this line and also…..